Head Full of Doubt

Inside a cold metal capsule, I traveled across town, cutting into the fog.    The fog outside mirrored the fog in my head.   Nothing looked familiar.  Lost, inside myself, I struggled to find the way, cursing the fog.  My struggle against the fog didn't change a thing.  What if I stopped resisting?  What if I were to accept the unknowing, the confusion, the self-doubt?  Before I could give it much thought, the opening bars of this song began to flow out of the radio.



In the early morning fog, the lyrics spoke clearly.  I carried them with me all day.  I carry them now.  I can't tell you what this song really means.   I understand the spaces between the words.  What is not said is more than what is.   In the early morning darkness and fog, the light broke through.  My head was full of doubt but the road remained full of promise.

Head full of doubt, Road full of Promise – The Avett Brothers

There’s a darkness upon me that’s flooded in light
In the fine print they tell me what’s wrong and what's right
And it comes in black and it comes in white
And I'm frightened by those who don’t see it
When nothing is old deserved or respected
And your life doesn’t change by the man that’s elected
If you’re loved by someone you’re never rejected
Decide what to be and go be it.
There was a dream
One day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage a broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a kid, with a head full of doubt
So I scream till I die and don’t ask for those bad thoughts to find me now
There’s a darkness upon you that’s flooded in light
In the fine print they tell you what’s wrong and what's right
And it flies by day and it flies by night
And I’m frightened by those who don’t see it